I am so afraid Jesus--I am so terribly afraid--let me not be deceived.--I am so afraid.--This fear shows me how much I love myself.--I am afraid of the suffering that will come--through leading that Indian life--clothing like them, eating like them, sleeping like them--living with them and never having anything my way. How much comfort has taken possession of my heart.

(Blessed Mother Teresa, Come Be My Light, p 97)